you say i say. we all say?

nothing in particular

2006-08-19T09:59:00.000-07:00

JANUARY TALKS
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the center. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them MFE.

FEBRUARY SMARTS
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.A real speed demon.
Has more than one best friend.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH GORGEOUS
Drop dead gorgeous!!!Attractive personality.Very! sexy.Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic.Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot! Loves to get their way! . Unbkelievable kisser! Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible! Loves to get noticed! Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense! Maybe a little too popular with others * wink wink*. Outgoing and crazy at times! Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker! Can love as much as possible! Hates insults. Loves compliments! Just one of the clumsiest people you will ever meet. A very big flirt! Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of all these months!! Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle upfeelings. Observant and assesses others.

APRIL JOKES
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or
make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains. If you

MAY ATTENTION
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited.

JUNE SECRETS
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.

JULY FLIRT
You've got the best personality and are an
absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make
new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
and more than likely have an a very attractive
partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely
that you have a massive record collection. You
have a great choice in films, and may one day
become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,
you've got the looks for it!!!

AUGUST ATTITUDE
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"
or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter.

SEPTEMBER LOVER
Hella sexy, loves sex n makin luv, tends to be SOOOOO hott!!Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.
Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand.

OCTOBER BABE
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the centre. Great in bed.Inner
and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices.
Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others.
It is all about love and fairness.Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Horny but does fullfill
Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions.
Know what to do to have fun. Unpredictable.Someone to have close to you.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them MFE.

NOVEMBER HOTTIE
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the
greatest men are born in this month. If you ever
begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because their one of a kind.

DECEMBER BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends

this i find very true :

1. Men ARE not mind readers.

2. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

3. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.

4. Shopping is NOT a sport.
And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

5. Crying is blackmail.

6. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

7. Yes and No are perfectly Acceptable answers to almost every question.

8. Come to us with a problem only If you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

9. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem See a doctor.

10. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

11. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us to act like soap opera guys.

12. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

13. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one

14. You can either ask us to do somethingOr tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

15. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials.

16. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

17. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not! A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.

18. If it itches, it will Be scratched.
We do that.

19. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

20. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.

21. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear Is fine... Really.

22. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as Hockey, the shotgun formation,
or golf.

23. You have enough clothes.

24. You have too many shoes.

25. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

26. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;

But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

Hair For Hope

2006-07-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

today the day before the 31st of July is a very very good day
one which will remain with me for a long time to come

firstly, i'm bald and it's for a good cause.
it is a symbolistic event for the kids struck with cancer.
secondly, i finally got down to buying Ben Jelen and Low Millions cds!
lastly, i watched the Lake House
it's the best fantasty love story ever
yet it's the worst piece of illogical and improbable crap ever produced.
it depends on how you look at it.

HAIR FOR HOPE
god bless the kids
like you have graciously blessed me
i love you
like you love me

ben jelen - slow down

BREAKING NEWS

2006-07-16T09:41:00.000-07:00

I'M RUGBY VICE-CAPTAIN! :D

is the seat next to you taken?

2006-06-30T01:42:00.000-07:00

Passenger Seat
I roll the window down
And then begin to breathe in
The darkest country road
And the strong scent of evergreen
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

Then looking upwards
I strain my eyes and try
To tell the difference between shooting stars and satellites
From the passenger seat as you are driving me home.

"do they collide?"
I ask and you smile.
With my feet on the dash
The world doesn't matter.

When you feel embarrassed then i'll be your pride
When you need directions then i'll be the guide
For all time.
For all time.

i think i really love this song and i'll sing to whoever i'm going to marry
but anyway i'm just here to publicise my exuberance(sp?) of how well my lit went today
i think i'll be able to do well for it
at least i hope so
but basically what i was doing was thinking
and i'm not sure if the organisation was proper enough.
but oh well it's the first time that i've been able to write out so much logical stuff for lit!
hahahha well i guess if your 16 going 17 it's about time.

there's a fine line between too much and too little
but when is it that you become desperate?

as requested by a certain someone

2006-06-20T11:02:00.000-07:00

awww, ain't that sweet!
(notice that i'm holding something in my right hand in both pictures. PRINGLES! hehe)

England trip and Church camp

2006-06-18T01:03:00.001-07:00

well the first statement to make would be that both experiences are to remember forever
although i don't have any pictures from either
ill just have to make do with what i have.
haha i've only got a few pictures from the england trip.
but im not going to put all so as to minimalise my soontobe misconceptualised social image of being
a flirt.
but then again, it's all in perspectives (LOL).

well now, here's the problem. i dont know how to upload the picture such that it'll appear below this sentence. but oh well. the picture will now be on top. haha.

on the left is Munirah (the horny one), Geoffrey (the stoner) and Shisei (the pontiyanak) :)

so anyway the whole trip lasted 12 days although we were in England for a measly 10 days. 2 days were spent for travelling to and fro.

First day : Lake District and Langdale YHA(i'm guessing it's Youth Hostel Association)
although there were abit of technical errors and arriving late for dinner, everything went well for a start but only if you can disclude the long hike up to the YH. but the view was spectacular. it beats any peak in Singapore hands down. you see modernisation in the forms of houses, natural landscapes in terms of mountains and terrains and also nature in the form of SHEEPS and GOATS. haha i think that actually the coats of arms for England is wrong. it should show both the sheep and the goat instead of the lion and the other thing(heh i forgot). and that's the first day for you.

btw the total flight took about 12-13 hours excluding transit stops.

blahblahblah. i'm lazy to recall everything. i should have brought along a notepad with me :( oh well at least i have my pictures from there! i will update again later when i wake up from my long awaited air con and soft bed :D

ahhh basically let me just sum up the whole thing:
i've seen different sides of people. some ugly and some well, some pretty.
i never knew how much of a ride this trip was going to be.
i think that you've grown up geof, i really do and i really hope so.
the world (that i know) is an ugly place, England's the silver lining.
oh well, i'm actually considering using Livejournal, because well
after this trip and recent going-ons i realised the importance of a journal/diary
i guess the name says it all. livejournal and blogspot
i guess writing a journal has more meaning over blogging anytime
and well for that to happen i guess it's got to be private to a certain extent. so yeah haha.

i can't help but feel this pain
inside my mind.

The DaVinci Code

2006-05-21T02:50:00.001-07:00

i think it's about time i updated my blog.heh
there really isn't much to blog about
this is just a thought but
yesterday i saw a hi-bye friend at topman wisma
and i was thinking to myself
do people actually talk behind my back?
don't get me wrong
im not trying to say that im perfect
cos yeah no one is perfect
and im no one therefore im perfect.
okay not funny
but yeah
times really have changed.
do people talk behind my back?

so anyway.
i watched the davinci code yesterday
i think it was a really good FICTIONAL story.
you know this is really funny
because there's actually a movie along similar story lines
National Treasure
the one with Nicholas Cage
it's like basically a treasure hunt on some bullshit
that DOESN'T EXIST
but of course in National Treasure it's so bullshit no one will believe it
but yeah everyone believes the DaVinci Code because of what?
it's a controversy over one of the biggest religions in the world
and this bullshit is backed up by more bullshit on channels like discovery channel
i mean the underlying fact is that it's bullshit and people on discovery channel
and the Pope, church, your parents tell you that it's bullshit not because
their afraid that you'll believe it
but it's because it is bullshit
and the thing which is really disappointing is that
some catholics actually believe the bullshit
and as i was walking out of the theatre yesterday
i was looking around at my fellow patrons of this blasphemus movie
i could only imagine what these non-christians were thinking
how they could be condemning christianity there and then
fickle minded as they are to believe the fiction of a movie
and the blasted Dan Brown is getting money while making a cuckold of MY religion
but my dad was telling me today that
well yeah that may very well be the case.
but ultimately it is their own decision and anyway
it's as if they don't already condemn our faith and religion
it just builds more foundation.

oh well
i thought that it was actually quite well balanced.
in terms of the critism of our religion and the counter arguments to that
but of course
the analogy i give to this is when someone punches your balls and then says sorry
yeah
the damage has been done now i guess i be leaving
that kinda thing
so yeah. haha
and i also thought that the movie also had a separate meaning of
Control and The Used(now you know where they got it from)
i guess this is very evident in our society
in the corporate world/among our friends (which i could go on to ask what is friends? but i shan't)
again, i thought it was a very good FICTIONAL movie

im flying off to England in 2 weeks
and i have a little phobia of flying
so i hope to meet people who hold some significance in my life next week
but then again
there aren't many
but i want to meet up with st gabriel's classmates at the very least

You dont know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
Im afraid to move
Im weak
Its true
Im just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know u met me?

Labour Day

2006-05-01T08:05:00.000-07:00

today i am pretty pleased with myself
first thing was that i went with my dad,mum,brother,sisterinlawtobe
to have lunch at MARCHE!!
woot!
excellent lunch
had half a pork knuckle, a chicken leg, a snapple
i wanted to have a waffle ice cream
but i was abit too stuffed and lazy to get it
haha
after that i went to HMV to and proceeded to get two cds
(i) Downtown Singapore
(ii) Damien Rice
WOO!
haha
im damn happy with both purchases
and to top it off
my dad paid for both
HEHEHE
and now i just finished my econs
well not really finished
but i think i accomplished abit of econs today
i finally know what's PED and YED and abit of XED :l
im such a slacker.
tmr's my last rugby match
and also for the J2's
i just cant get over the fact that they lost cos of me
i think ill apologise to them tmr
we'll see what happens.

disappointment overwhelms me

2006-04-28T05:27:00.000-07:00

today was the last hope, OUR last hope
i wasted it
it's all my fault
two penalties
two tries
one flop of a lift up one try
i conceded two tries
its all my fault we lost.
i let down the j2's
it was their last chance
it was our last chance.
what's the use of scars and reminders of the day
if there's no result worth remembering
very very disappointed.

canteen duties

2006-04-23T01:14:00.000-07:00

i think i've been real gay with all the stupid emo posts
so today should be a neutral one
yesterday i went for this play called
Furthest North, Deepest South
it's pretty good.
its about how Chung Ho(sp?) actually found America
not Chris Columbus i think
damn i hope i didnt get my history from
cos i dont even know where the sun rises and sets.
so anyway
i think its a very good play
cos it shows us that sometimes when we try so hard
to find the solution to our problems we look at everything around us
blame and try to escape from anyone that comes to befriend us
in order to get our freedom
but actually in finding the "Furthest North, Deepest South"
all we have to look for is in fact, a mirror
yes all is our doing
ourselves
we just dont see it
the eye sees all but itself
very good play again about how low self esteem and confidence
lets inferiority complex infect and destroy us.
at the starting part, also shows how we are attached to
the lives that we havent chose, but instead the lives that we've been
forced to live.
like how everything has been planned out for us just to follow
very good play
i liked it alot
it even won the Life! Theatre Award or something
i read it somewhere in the Life! paper yesterday.

today i had canteen duty.
it wasnt exactly the most fun of things to do
but i kinda enjoyed it
im beginning to like the simple things in life more
and more each day
but im also closing up more and more each day
this isnt going to be an emo entry again

so ill end off by saying
RUGBY ROCKS
and im scared for tuesday :(

Hypocrisy pawns!

2006-04-21T07:29:00.000-07:00

disappointed but trying to hold on
whats the matter if nothing's going on
there isnt much to be said other than
im just damn disappointed

today was my first taste of an excellence rugby match
although we got thoroughly thrashed, we all looked back at our mistakes
we all know what to expect next when we play RJC next
we're gonna get FUCKING SLAUGHTERED
omigad.
but yes
rugby rocks! and im enjoying it more than ever

i just wish some people would grow some fucking common sense

i hATE POSE-ERS!

im just dying to tell you anything you wanna hear, cos that's just who i am this week

2006-04-10T08:07:00.000-07:00

i like srjc
i bought new soccer boots today for rugby
ive got no regrets going to srjc
haha sometimes i think if i had a choice where would i rather go
cjc or srjc?
i weighed the options and i figured srjc
first of all cjc didnt give any subject talks and i would have
done some stupid subject combination that i think would have suited me
second, RUGBY! :)
lastly, the people i know in srjc.
their not all exactly the in crowd but neither am i.
i guess it's pretty cool to know your place in society and accept it
to a certain extent. HMMMM.
but yeah. haha
SRJC (srjc) SRJC (srjc)
NORTH SOUTH EAST WEST
SR
SR
IS THE BEST!

the butterfly effect

2006-04-07T08:16:00.000-07:00

geoffrey.
rugby.
this cant go on much longer.

im sorry for the person i became

2006-03-28T06:04:00.000-08:00

school's been fine.
but i really have got to get a move on.
Gp assignment due this friday 8am
PW pi due next friday.
damn.
and as for my cca.
i think ive more or less made up my mind to join RUGBY! :D
ive always liked the sport.
ALL BLACKS!
ugah ugah ugah!
johnny wilkinson and the likes.
im in the team more or less
but actually everyone who joined rugby will more or less be in it too
cos the team's looking for people to join.
they've currently got a small squad.
im looking forward to the year of challenges ahead
but then again whenever i say that i always end up not reaching my goals
or just doing mediocrely.
oh well.
for those who havent caught V for Vendetta.
please do catch it. i want to watch it again so if you cant find anyone to watch with
pls do give me a ring :D

Soliloquy

2006-03-21T03:37:00.000-08:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yhea you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

sometimes trying isnt good enough.
you need two roads to get a more efficient
transport system
one way traffic isnt all that good.

there's nothing in the world like Emily!

im at my all time flabby

2006-03-13T22:56:00.000-08:00

today i just played basketball.
im happy that i can at least still grab the ring.
my stamina is down.
my everything is down
i cant dribble even if my life depended on it
but oh well.
ive really gotta get back in shape soon. and
DAMN FAST at that :(
but oh well.
im too lazy to do anything
BUT
since im a J1
i WILL make up my mind to get my pacs back.
shed the flabs off my body once and for all
but oh well.
2nd day of learning and studying again
its not as bad as i thought it would be.
but i guess its only the beginning.
GOTTA MUG
GOTTA BE A NERD!

so yeah this is to the CRAZY AMK GIRLS
namely : LAN YANN AND ANNETTE
they like followed me home today.
only to be late for some meeting with their friends.
SEE LA WASTE MONEY.

oh well.
TOKYO ROSE ROCKS!
thanks fatty :D

SRJC!

2006-03-11T22:24:00.000-08:00

so tmr i officially start going for lessons and blahblah.
im so sad orientation is over.
it was damn fun la.
haha
i cant dance no more :(
the dances were so fun.
although i didnt dance with any hot people. haha

im going stationery shopping soon
SO IF ANYONE READS THIS AND WANTS TO COME WITH ME
PLS DO MESSAGE ME.
THANK YOU :D

Web Of Love ( HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHHA!!)

2006-03-04T22:10:00.000-08:00

last night i couldnt sleep. cos like im used to sleeping 3/4 everyday
so i was just looking through my old stuff
like neoprints, letters, gifts
AND my school year book
but ill keep that for later.

ill skip the names in case of embarrassment on my part and whoever's

so first was valentines day of my sec 2 year
HEHEHHEHEHEHEHEH
there was the black envelope and the red letter with the straw heart
so sweet.
i really only just realised how stupid i was/am
there was only this like pillow thingy you got for me.
with some cute guy in front with words saying "I LOVE YOU"
the front with the picture was white and the back was blue.
do you remember? ( hahahhaa)
and how to forget the heart with the two wiggly arms.
thanks bitch ( as said on the letter. IMMA E.T!)

then.

there were random letters from friends.
like
how i miss them.
basketball and all.
which leads me to think
where the hell are all my warm fuzziessssss. hmmm
so yeah.
there was this cute post card letter thingy.
with geoffrey rush in front of it.
geoffrey rush = pirates of the caribbean bad guy.
so my friend cancelled the rush and said.
to: Geoffrey
hahah
so cute.

then there was this drawing block.
hehe
with black background
my name in geoffrey
and random splashes of paint all over.
for my 15th birthday.
this is where come what may will never apply.
my previous entry was about me thinking
so this is one of the things i usually think about.
the what could/should/would/might have happened if blahblahblah
thanks for everything ding.

then.

there was the friendship issue. (if you message me and ask questions again ill delete this part off)

what went wrong cos you said this was right.
you fucked up my life

many apologies and everything else i already mentioned/said to you before
patience is a virtue we all must learn to have.
understanding is a goal we all need to achieve.
both of us got neither and
you know the story

then.

of course.
how can i miss this out?
secondary school.
lets start with the first album i saw
when i was in sec1
2002
hehehe
fat chubby
what else?
it really was the most fun year in secondary school.
practically everyday playing soccer with my schoolmates.
having pe on 3 days every week
thanks to everyone who made it possible

NOW
2004
HAHAHAHH!!! THE FUCKIN YEAR BOOK
and miss radha says its a privilege.
yeah yeah all you fuckers know what im talking about right
The Web OF LOVE
WTF!!!
WHAT WAS I THINKING.
OMIGADOMIGADOMIGAD
yes 3e3/4e3 of late was the best
and always will be
i hope all of us will keep in contact with each other
even though new friends will come in our new schools.
at least try and save saturdays for pool la okay?

tmr a new chapter starts for me
i figured i wanted to put an end to my last two years
so i guess ill post it here as a kind of
er.
something la.

good luck to all i love.
have a great life :D

im turning into an emo kid :(!!!

this sensation's overwhelming

2006-03-03T11:32:00.000-08:00

well.
3rd march
posting
i didnt get into cjc :(
i got posted to srjc
shit la
i like dont wanna go to srjc
but oh well.
honestly.
im considering whether i should go to poly or not.
i mean. i shouldnt be choosy and stuff.
but srjc.
SO CHEENA!!!
aiyoooo

reality came so hard and so strong.

hmmmm.
im gonna miss cycling out at night for prata with the fatty(jason chua)
by myself and Mike Gayle : My Legendary Girlfriend
with various other people also.
the only thing ive done this holiday was grow very fat (flabs)
and ive been thinking alot.
ive been thinking too much.
i think strategically.
but i cant say out anything thats on my mind to anyone
partially cos i think people might not get my pov
disagree with me (if you catch me on the wrong day ill be very very grouchy)
mostly cos i dont feel like
cos
of reasons i wont say
anyway
today my dad became vulnerable again.
like.
he's my dad.
i couldnt say anything to cheer him up
i cant help but think.
all this thinking about life with or without meaning
has gone to waste.
because maturity really does come with age (but more with experience)

God, are you really there?

Goo Goo Dolls : Iris

(OI JASON. DIAM LA!! NNB CCB)

sugar how you get so fly?

2006-02-16T07:40:00.000-08:00

14/02/2006 :)
thank you J.H.*.* (i dont know your chinese name)
:)
do i need to say anymore?

you know that you are actually my first valentine
you were the only one i gave presents to, wished and smiled at that day
i bet your feeling special. RIGHT RIGHT?! (right!)
okay good. anyway

im scared of posting.
i didnt do my address properly!
A;IFBVSA;FBS;FF
DFASODASB
books are very friendly things.
they are now my best friends (second only to computer pixels)

a beautiful mind

2006-02-08T10:36:00.000-08:00

the aforementioned movie is very chim
partially cos i couldnt hear russell crowe talk on yin wai's sound system
partially also because when i could hear him i couldnt understand :l
therefore i must watch it again

i remember quite long ago i had this dream
i collected my results and i got 13 points R5
i dont know if dreams do come true.
i really hope it does.
36 hours. everything will be revealed.
im either gonna win my mum's bet of 500
or im going to be very very very very fucking sad

what's on the menu?

2006-02-06T09:17:00.000-08:00

today i had egg, egg with minced pork and beancurd
not the most appealing, but still pretty appetizing.
anyways today i promised myself id blog.
so yeah here i am
anyway
today i tried to like "workout"
i only managed 30 sit ups and 20 push ups before i went panting
like the wuss that i now am
i still remember last time i used to do 20 warm up push ups
20 of the sort that uses more of chest muscles
15 diamond
something
and 5-one minute push ups.
and id be tired but not panting.
now im like a damn dog. lol
but oh well.
i havent properly exercised for one year
and i better get started soon.
(first impression at school :D)

which leads me to my next topic
O LEVEL RESULTS!
well i cant say im all that excited about getting the results
cos of that stupid moe letter
but i know ill do relatively well
at least im hoping.
actually
there are like a whole bunch of reasons that i can think of that
can prove that ill screw up the whole exam and score
mediocrely. again. as usual
but i really do hope i can at least get into cjc.
confidence doesnt matter if you dont have action and thus result.
but i guess that really applies to me

which again leads me to my last topic for today.
Valentine's day.
i hope i have the mood for it
but i talk as if i have the girl for it
i gotta research on valentines day.
cos really.
what kinda guy has so much importance that a day has to be
given in his name for all couples to.er.whatever for a day
i mean he has to either be the biggest flirt ever.
or just some rich idiot bloke who had the daughter of king whatever
fall in love with him. then made her give him a day in his name
so he can fulfil his sexual desires??????
so anyway. i dont like valentine's day.
cos its like practically every year its on a bloody weekday.
now that im free with no problem with weekdays
i cant really find anyone to go out with on a weekday.
i sound like a desperate typing this.
like some kinda desperate loser hoping some hot babe will read this
and feel sorry for me and ask me out for valentines day.
(PLS DO IF YOU ARE!)
EHHEM. ehhem.
hair ball
anyway
Fearless is the best movie by Jet Li ever.
period (like the 7 day period for my hot valentine babe)
EHHEM
theres like fighting
fighting
more fighting
the hot blind girl
the tragic ending.
oh man. i love sad endings.
i practically gave the movie away.
so yeah just go malaysia and buy it.
or something (for nothing. its a cheat in starcraft. which happens to be one of my favorite games.
but actually my favorite was this game on M-DOS!!!!! called Zilliard. damn i forgot the name
but anyway)
it is a must must must watch!

i hope i do well for o level's :(
for my parents sake

well actually ive never really heard the lyrics for this song
but what the heck. i like the title

relient k : who i am hates who ive been

oh no

2006-01-27T01:22:00.000-08:00

HORROR OF HORRORS!!
im beginning to think my pair of Levi's is abit tight for me
and i think that .A really fucks your brain and your body
i cant play pool for nuts
i havent properly exercised for about close to a year
this is the first time in about 5 years im feeling
really sick (the fakes were to pon school LOL i feel so cool)

St.Gabriel's Secondary School is the worst and best school ever
ST GAB'S BOLEHHHH
ST GAB'S BOLEHHHH
ST GAB'S BOLEHHHH
ST GAB'S BOLEHHHH!!!!!

my whole family is going deaf

2006-01-21T06:39:00.000-08:00

im back from Malaysia with a capitol H
with my superman action and whatever

shopping list : pair of Levi's shoes for RM220
two shirts from Body Glove
one normal tee and the other a polo (red polo for CNY!)
two Obey shirts which cost 60RM! for both WOOOO
one pair of jeans

so yeah. thats one item per day.
but yeah haha other than that it was quite boring
sad to say. but yeah i could never have fun with my parents
anywayyyyyy Arsenal lost to Everton 0-1
i cant get into msn for some stupid reason.
i bet its the new com.
stupid shit ass piece of crap. :(

nothing to blog about so yeah.
results out in about a month.
HAVE FUN WHILE YOU CAN

motion city soundtrack

2006-01-09T08:04:00.001-08:00

i think my defination of friends = strangers whose names i know
seriously
i cant be close to anyone now.
mainly because i wont let myself
i mean give without expecting
im fine with that.
always been
but im still a human being.
theres a limit to everything
and its really really sad for me to say that its going to stop soon.
so soon.
i really cant believe this.
i never thought myself of being emo.
but really i am starting to be.
and it really sucks.
i hate fucking public blogs.
but im too lazy to keep a daily diary.
so i guess secrets will be kept to myself.
whats new?
people talk.
they always do.
always...
and never (damn i love sin city)

new year

2005-12-31T23:36:00.000-08:00

so basically last night was the first drink i had in about quite long
and the fact that i know what ishouldnot do when i drink
helped me to pretty much stay sober
so i didnt eat dinner
and there was bbq
and they started early
so basically after every downing of fermented whatever
i went to the bbq pit to grab a something to eat.
haah im actually still abit dazed now.
but its good.
heheheheheh
so last night after the countdown
shuan lim, yin wai and myself went to ang mo kio to play pool
and MACHEKNEI!!!!
they were bloody blasting techno like there was no blooody new year coming la
and the fact that we were all high and fly and still able to win games
(yin wai basically wasted his time, he lost by 7 balls :l)
but still it was good. haha
i won the last game of the night. so lets all hope that says something.
anyway also watched X2 again.
and i only just realised that storm is actually halle berry.
haha but oh well.
no school.
what rocks
no school.
what sucks
no school.

its been long since i put down lyrics here so;
Mae : Summertime

Summertime, summertime brought me back to thinking you were mine all those times.
We laid it down and left it all behind, we were blind.

Oh, the summertime.
We could ride, we could ride.
Take my hand and watch the world go by.
Laugh or cry, well we need to try, get off the line, time to fly.
Oh, the summertime.

Go on ahead and let it fade away.
No looking back you know the past will stay.
It's you and me, we could get out of here.
Jump in and go and we could drive for years.
We could feel alive...

Here we are, here we are,
windows down we see a falling star.
Stop the car.
Waiting for nothing but our beating hearts, going far.

Oh, the summertime.
So feel the air, feel the air,
take the map and point to anywhere.
I don't care. Fingers through your hair,
the sky I've seen is blue and green.
Oh, the summertime.

Driving away, leaving it all behind.
Driving away, just driving away.

christmas

2005-12-25T03:02:00.000-08:00

christmas mass was pretty much the usual.
damn im so freaking fat i cant stand it
i need to lose weight fast
at least if i dont lose weight i get my definations back
but there's no time
well actually there is
but then theres me (lazy)

so anyway back to christmas mass.
this year i got
alfred
clarity
michelle ang
miguel
yeah i think thats all
i got 4 presents this year in exchange for about 230-250 dollars
worth of presents i bought for people.
but then i owe an apology to clarity too
cos i still owe you your present
but anyway after that was miguel's gig.
not bad i guess haha.
ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT BUT WHATTHEHECK
anyways before that was paean and pearson(sp?)
paean makes a good guitarist.
so good in fact that he broke his first string if im not wrong
haha after that i went to meet my "girlfriend"
emphasize on the inverted commas but anyway
NUDGENUDGE

yeah after that went to alfred's place
haha at first i thought it was going to be boring
but good good GOOD JOB ALFRED
but to be honest it was basically jonny boy doing all the shit
i mean thats what a party must have
the host
the audience
the clown/entertainer (if its a rocking party everything will be in abundance :D)
so yeah haha

thats christmas for me this year

i guess
that by a longshot, maybe
jusy perhaps
everything might be not all that worthwhile.

the eve of christmas eve

2005-12-22T19:40:00.000-08:00

work sucks we know
christmas mass in two days.
im so excited.
im gonna be oh so formal
in fact im gonna be the TOP MAN
(you'll get it on christmas morning if you see me)
this holidays are pretty boring.
basically work sucks.
but i guess it'll be worth it for the money
oh well.
christmas shopping and cutting of hair in about an hour.

MERRY MERRY MERRRRYYYY CHRISTMAS TO
ONE AND ALL

blink182 - all the small things (video)

Euphoria

2005-12-05T20:25:00.000-08:00

i just came back from malaysia
haha i think i got homesick halfway
man i really do hate travelling.
anyways i got myself three tops and a pair of shoes
all under/around S$100 :D
i finally got a purple shirt (levi's) and my pair
of converse hi cuts
YAY
ive got one shirt for christmas
its supposed to look vintage but wtf la
haha
anyways

mae - tisbury lane
yellowcard - gifts and curses
blink 182 - story of a lonely guy/feeling this
boxcar racer - there is

Feeling

2005-12-01T07:56:00.000-08:00

Silverstein : Discovering The Waterfront
Fall Out Boy : Sugar, We're Going Down
Number One Gun : There Is Hope
Number One Gun : Life Is What You Make It

okay theres more but im being rushed to play .A

finally

Copeland : No One Really Wins This Time

btw Prime rocks (modern ballet hehehe)

I Constantly Thank God For Esteban

2005-11-27T03:37:00.001-08:00

today i went to play basketball for the first time in about 7 months
i pretty much lost freaking everything.
i can still pull the ring though
but then again thats useless if you cant shoot/dribble/score
anyway there was 4 of us
i couldnt even play a proper fast game of 2v2 la
how freaking useless
anyway after that went to play pool and came home

so the highlight for the week is chalet tmr
WOOOOHOOOO 4E3 BOLEH!!

so would i be out of line
if i said
i miss you?

I Constantly Thank God For Esteban

2005-11-27T03:37:00.000-08:00

hmmm

2005-11-24T08:16:00.000-08:00

DO I REALLY WANT THIS?

er

2005-11-22T10:40:00.001-08:00

i dont like fucking gay whores.
they spoil fucking everything
at first i thought one was still okay
now theres fucking two
oh my fucking god
what the fuck is it with me and gay fucking people
oh my fucking god!
there goes my fucking dota overnight
fucking gay whores spoil everything
SERIOUSLY
THEY FUCKING GAY ASS WHORE SPOIL FUCKING EVERYTHING
FUCK GAY WHORES
FUCK ALL YOU GAYS OUT THERE
ALTHOUGH IM FINE WITH YOU
STILL FUCK YOU
FUCK ALL YOU FUCKING GAY WHORES
FUCK YOU STRAIGHT TO FUCKING LUCIFER'S PALACE

er

2005-11-22T10:40:00.000-08:00

HEHE

2005-11-22T06:17:00.000-08:00

this song is damn cute!
gym class heroes : taxi driver

i am freee

2005-11-22T03:08:00.001-08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
fuck o levels
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
3/4 MONTHS!!
WOOOOOO!!!
FUCK ALL YOU SUCKERS GOING FOR FIRST 3 MONTHS
WOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO

dredg : nuhgm

i think

2005-11-16T01:16:00.000-08:00

what i want most at 16 years old and 11 days
is independence.
i want a house to myself
i want it to have a bedroom joined to the living room and a toilet
and lights and a computer
my parents still treat me like a bloody kid
and it is fucking irritating.
yeah yeah i know they mean well for me.
obviously i know it
i just need more independence
everything's been their way.
i cant even cook maggi mee for dinner
WTF AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

THIRD LAST DAY

2005-11-16T01:04:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
I WANT TO BREAK SOMETHING.
I HATE FUCKING SMALL TREES.
I WANNA BREAK YOU!!!!!
I WANNA KILL THOSE CAMBRIDGE PEOPLE WHO SET THE POA PAPER
I WANT TO FUCKING KILL YOU TORTURE YOU FUCKING TORMENT YOU
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one more week and two days

2005-11-12T20:28:00.000-08:00

chinese b tmr
i think chinese b is a fucking waste of time
its so bloody easy
everything is in mcq
they should just put it together on the same day as the retake of chinese
like get it over and done with la
wtf! its really a bloody waste of time
tmr i have to go school at 2 just to do it
tuesday :amath paper 1
wednesday : geog chinese b LC(................................) and poa paper 2
thursday : amath paper 2 and poa paper 1
NEXT TUESDAY : science mcq :l

that pretty much means i must get an A1 for science.
since i can pretty much score for both phy and chem papers
the practical was okay.
so i must score an A1 with the 5 days of preparation for mcq
that also pretty much means 2 days at the most that i will prepare
i figured whats wrong with me
im not homesick.
im sick of home.
ive pretty much been locked up here since june
not because ive been studying
because ive been growing fat and pretending that i am
so i wont feel guilty for the o's
guilty that i might let down my parents
i cant wait till after o's
basketball+workingout+gettingbackmybody
THEN HELLO SENTOSA :D (hi lydiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)

ASHTON KUTCHER IS A JACKASS!!!
i think i spelt his surname wrongly
but he's still a jackass anyway.
my brother is a jackass also.
he doesnt let me watch punk'd
jackass

he just turned off the tv *insert stupid smirk*

er. what the hell?

2005-11-09T20:13:00.000-08:00

last night i had a dream
hilary duff was in it
we were in some kinda zen looking hotel
like the doors everything we like
opened with fingerprints and all
i was there with some of my friends
then i meet her halfway
then we exchanged ROOM numbers
then after that we were sitting on a bench frenching
and WTH LA it was like how real?! i like felt the saliva and all la!
MACHEKNEH DAMN FREAKY KNOW
so the whole dream was her and i.
walking around/sitting down frenching or having sex alternately between both our rooms :l

she tasted not bad actually
oh no, i hope im not going to turn into a hilary duff fan.
EEEEEEEEE

2005-11-09T04:09:00.000-08:00

hi cheryl since you were so nice to mention me in your blog
i'd be even nicer and POST A PICTURE of you :D

HI CHERYL/TWINNIE!

DAY 2

2005-11-07T21:53:00.000-08:00

wow.
i love chem 60< /65 yay
IM SCARED OF PHYSICS
GOOD LUCK EVERYONE

dont act cute la!

2005-11-05T03:50:00.000-08:00

okay since theres nobody online now i decided to post a short one
my brother's girlfriend just called him.
i think their going to watch a movie
hehehheheheehhehe. he like talking all cute all.
i wanna slap him.
HEHEHEEHEHEE
okie okie. hmm? ee no car*act cute voice*
WHATS WRONG WITH YOU!!
heheheehehehe

destroy destroy destroy destroy destroy
KKND
KRUSH KILL AND DESTROY

0511

2005-11-04T08:07:00.000-08:00

4 is a square root of 16
PLAYING LAN BEFORE 6PM. HERE I COME!
(after 22nd novemeber)

thanks to all!

Tired of lying, tired of fighting

2005-11-01T18:42:00.000-08:00

Presumptuous accusations and unevident fallacies.
feel sorry for the bad guy gone irealisemymistakes
ignore the good guy gone sad.

the cycle is starting again.
why shouldnt i be surprised.

picturesque perfect song

2005-11-01T08:40:00.000-08:00

Boxcar Racer : I Feel So

Sometimes
I wish I was brave
I wish I was stronger
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for
How people are
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could change the world
For you and me

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
Let's start over
Let's start over
Let's start over

a world of fuck ups and downplaying

2005-11-01T05:12:00.000-08:00

i just got home from studying then dinner with my parents
studying today was good i suppose.
pretty much got my concept of metals, organic chem and fuels sorted out
i figured when im at home my com feeds my need to do something
be it productive or unproductive.
when im out of home with nothing to do and my books in front of me
i pretty much feed off it.
so i mean productive.
i absorb pretty much everything.
my dad was very emotional today at dinner
haha he pretty much always is after mass.
he sent me something very personal to him i guess.
over sms.
i replied your family loves you.
i guess thats pretty much the gist of it.
your family loves you.
why bother about the public?
of course face counts.
but does it count more than your family?
if you go into jail because you robbed someone, raped a girl, killed someone.
you'll just be like anyone else.
but if you go in and say.
I ABUSED MY PARENTS AND THE POLICE CAUGHT ME
AND HERE I AM.
you'll pretty much get whacked up by all the other jailmates no?
my dad replied my sms saying its
a very eloquent response
coming from an adult.
i guess thats pretty much evident enough.

anyway o's are in 8 days. more like 7 and a half actually.
im pretty much only prepared for emath.
maybe amath and chem.
so much more to do. so little time.
i guess everything is in your mind.

on a much much much lighter note.
HEHEHEHEEHHEEHHEHEEHEHEHEHEHEH
i had an ultra LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
talk today with clarity and pretty much cleared stuff up.
yay. talked about LOADS of things.
hi clarity the vulgar *waves*

wronged and broken, my dear klementine
when will you use your heart and see
close your eyes and feel
free your mind from your self induced prison?
scrutiny and injustice you say?
the world is against you, you say?
free your mind from yourself
use your heart to see
close your eyes and feel, i say.

DISCO INFERNO

2005-10-30T05:59:00.000-08:00

YEAHHH!!
the Arsenal match against tottenham was just a mofo thriller
i only saw the first half of the Chelsea match
but their desire to win is really admirable
they really are a good team
and Jose Mourinho is a good manager
Claudio.R(dunnohowtospelllol) didnt produce as good results
as Jose is producing now
but i still hate fuckin Chelsea cos they have got too much many
and pry players from clubs

basically
i
am
fucking
happy
Manchester-gotohell-United
got thrashed 4-1 by Borough
well i read that off someone's blog and i didnt check the papers
i am lazy
i am sorry
anyways Arsenal were pretty disappointing in the first half
like they lacked the attitude
seriously seriously lacked the attitude
all the young players were on the field
i think that was a stupid idea cos they lack experience in derby matches no?
and what the hell was Wenger thinking placing Pires on the bench
he and Ljungberg are bloody good flankers la
although Henry wasnt fit i figured Wenger should have at least let him
on for the last ten minutes
also he should just bloody drop Bergkamp to the bench permanently la
van fucking persie is so much bloody better
the moment he came on he gave Tottenham so much problems defensively

van persie and Henry
the power duo for Arsenal
poor Sol
he kept getting boo-ed by the Tottenham fans
haha. i think he kinda lost his concentration also

but i guess the man-of-the-match
of the derby should have gone to Paul Robinson
he took away Tottenham's chance of making history.
what a nice birthday present for Pires.

Paul Robinson : the glorified cocker-up

senses fail?

2005-10-28T05:55:00.000-07:00

okay so recently ive been pretty much in my own world
which is kinda funky
but then again, i have very little patience with people
well. not very little. just less
i just realised i dont it alot when people interrupt me
even over the slightest of things
like listening to my Zen :l
which is the bad thing of being in my own world
but i like it
and im not usually like that unless i dont like the person
and erm. i figured i cant write alot of stuff here.
cause blog's are pretty much being read by the Govt now
like. so much for being a free country
oh no i might be sued for this
anyways
hi Mr Officialwhoever if your reading this

this is boring
i want to rant
i cant
ive got nobody to rant to

im weak
i admit im weak
we're all weak
but i admit im weak
look at them
they act like their strong
we're all weak
but i admit im weak
look at them they think their strong.

i want to meet james frey.
i want to meet lily.
i want to be strong.
Father bless us.
we are all weak
i am sorry.

i am feeling very stoned.
i feel that if a mosquito were to lay its eggs on me
it would hatch into many many mosquitoes
because i am very stagnant now
i have no mood
am in no mood
i wanna eat my mood and spit it out and step on it
i wanna be strong
i need to study
i must be strong
but i am weak
and i tell myself
I AM STRONG

okay thats what i thought to myself while i was in daily mass by myself today
the wonders of being in your own world

i just found out something about myself again
namely yesterday while talking to HUIS
yes? no? yes!
heheehheheheehhehehehhehehhhe think pink fuck bunny layout on diaryland
i bet you forgot that too.
I ROCK
i also remember.....
okay i cant remember anything now

i know that by addtion reaction of hydrogen to alkene it becomes an alkane
woooo i rock

senses fail : bite to break skin

my konstantine

2005-10-27T08:12:00.000-07:00

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had dreams that i would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
It's just this guilt has got the best of me

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And i've been thinking, and i've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And I was thinking, what I was thining ya know
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
It's hard to like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
And all the things i put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

God, I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what i miss, what i miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine

its raining now
i love it
reminiscence
im living it now
my konstantine

bite to break skin

2005-10-26T07:38:00.000-07:00

some fucker is screaming away a few floors above from me
he does it every night
well almost and its fucking irritating
i hate China(ese) people.
well my com is finally fixed
all credits to tommy the techie
man! the dude is super hardworking
he was at the damn thing for 4 and a half hours straight.
he didnt eat dinner and i think he went off to do another job
he has a family at home
but the good thing is he has a PDA and a laptop
like the recently brought into stores kind
so i guess he's doing alright

ive got shit loads of anti viruses now

i wanna take something and shove it up the guy's ass
did i say that A MILLION LITTLE PIECES BY JAMES FREY
is a bloody good book?
i love it

So let me take this medicine
To quench my love for violent things
My swan song will
Be like a bullet laced in anger
As the razor cuts a soft spot
On your heel.

(Each breath) is getting slower
(This war) is getting harder
To fight by myself
(Sick waves) of bitter fashion,
(Ripped down) the shield that I have
Tears rain from above.

Do you see?
The life I lead?

So follow me into the sun,
And I will bleed, the poisons dry.

These bayonet scars never cease
To blind the light shed from the beast
And all we do is hate.

(Eyes shot) from constant visions.
(Angels) are rendered useless
Good has lost it's heart.

Do you see?
The life I lead?

So follow me into the sun,
And I will bleed, the poisons dry.

For you [x2]
(For you!) [x3]

Bite to break skin,
Don't give the secret,
My stoic face,
Beaten with passion
The phoenix will die
Inside the fire storm
I am the son
So follow my footsteps.
[x2]

discovering the waterfront

2005-10-23T05:24:00.000-07:00

I will promise myself I won't care
distracting myself from your stare
and I've seen this mistake once before
with your games I will never fall for
I've hung up my guns
I won't kill again

[Chorus:]
I won't forget you (I won't forget you)
I'm not gonna let you win (I'm not gonna...)
but I'm tired of lying
tired of fighting you
and it's not gonna change

You ask for my heart
you know that I'm down
but not the way you lie to me,
you tear it all apart and beg for me to say
I sail off to sea (I sail off to sea),
I'm not coming back

[Chorus]

Counting down
Make that sounds
And you know it makes no sense
Counting down
Till you mess around
And I know you can't ever change
When I'm trembling,
Thrown overboard
And I'm ready to relive the past
Counting down
Make that sounds
Break the silence

Pretend it's not forever,
I'll pull myself together
I'll say that I'll forget her,
I'll breathe.
And I'll say she never hurt me,
And look at it as learning,
And laugh about the good and the bad.
Because I won't live forever
We don't belong together,
I know I'll feel better,
One day when I can make it through.

fuck

2005-10-21T06:14:00.000-07:00

this sucks. i havent been giving my all
ive got a sudden liking for incubus
at first i thought they were satanic so i didnt listen to them
so actually their music isnt as satanic as
their band name indicates
the singer actually reminds me of the hoobastank singer
heh
like 3 more weeks to ss.
i need to buck up so much

incubus - i miss you

practically

2005-10-20T00:35:00.000-07:00

today had phy/chem prac
was okie im too erm. lazy to elaborate.
it went okie

I LOVE MY CLASS
i will miss you guys

OH MAN!

2005-10-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

oh my goodness
my cat class people are so bloody hell sweet
they just sent me a letter with affirmations and what not
wah lao!
EH
WHICH ONE OF YOU READS MY BLOG AND HOW DID YOU
BLOODY HELL GET IT
I GET IT NOW
NO WONDER AUNTY GINGER CALLED ME THE OTHER DAY
I GET IT I GET IT
MAN!
so stressed. i still play diablo2 and watch mtv
i only did one english paper so far
and a few questions on emath.
better get back.
I CANT LET ANYONE DOWN
ILL SCREW MYSELF WITH A KNIFE IF I DO
i love you all!

heh

2005-09-30T22:19:00.000-07:00

okie so maybe the creative people were right
anyways i can finally use my zen again!
woohoooo!
i dunno whats wrong with me
i did so badly
and im still sitting here and comtemplating whether im gonna play
diablo2
which i think you all know the answer already
hmmmm
i downloaded a shitload of songs yesterday
i hope i dont get caught :l

the prize fight - goodnight kiss

this sucks

2005-09-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

oh man
i like totally screwed my prelims
i only got two a's
i failed combine science
i got a C5 for amath but hopefully it'll be a B4
i hate this. i have to rely on moderation
and not my own hard work to get my grades
how useless is that
i failed my english summary (lol as usual)
erm. probably gonna fail geog
ss im probably gonna get like 30 maybe?
with my science marks coming out like that
anything is possible lol
wah lao im so sad over my science la
first time i fail know
as in for like major papers la
everyone fails classtest
haha
so its emath A2
poa A2
Science D7
Humans D7
English C5
Amath B4
hmmm 27 for L1R5 okie better than 30 for last year
heh
:D
that wasnt cos im happy
it was meant to be sarcastic
this sucks
seriously
oh well
and my zen micro is retarded. it could charge
yesterday
now it cant again
the stupid creative people say its the charger
ITS THE FREAKING BATTERY MOFOS
they cheated my mum
FUCK YOU ALL!

im still aiming for 6 points. lol

lalala

2005-09-22T04:44:00.000-07:00

yay prelims officially end tmr
woohoo!
haha science mcq left
my physics teacher told some of my classmates that
for section b the average mark was like 5/20
but the good news is that some people had like
1 or 2 /20
okie la good news for me la bad news for some
but then again it could be bad news for me
pls dun let me be the few who got 1 or 2
i dun think so la
i hope not.
oh well
my results with prudence
amath paper 1 50/80
paper 2 45/80 *i dont believe this.*
emath overall 75/100
poa overall 75/100
science *oh man* physics 40/60
chem 35/50
ss 30/50
geog HAHAHAHAHA/50
english *i hope for the first time ever to get an a for english :l*
70/100

oh well not too bad for just the day before studying.
but amath really makes me wanna eat my heart with pencil
like paper 2
i could have actually gotten 56/80
but cos of one stupid mistake
and the second for me to take so long to think
about what happens when f(x) and f^-1(x) intersect
they CUT AT y=x
what the hell la why i so stupid!!
grrr 7 marks gone like that
then kinematics. i integrate until so nice.
then i prove that c=0
then i copied the stupid equation wrongly
supposed to be t^3/3-4t^2+15t
i put t^3/3- T^2+15t
wah lao!!!!
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz LA!
piece of shit i lost 15marks cos of that
but with prudence all.
aiyah!
so disappointed.
i should be getting a for all my math. i hope my poa turns out fine
i think it should be okie la.
im just keeping my fingers crossed.
o level CHINESE B ORAL ON MONDAY.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA

tmr dota. saturday dota. sunday DOTA
STEAM AR!

radio man

2005-09-18T21:06:00.000-07:00

just came home from school
heard this on the radio
dfklbjhsdli spare tire.
will you ignite my fire?
come back to me my camelot
i like you alot
it was on some malaysian channel
damn spastic boy!
singapore should be more creative

embarrassing

2005-09-18T08:50:00.000-07:00

i was lying on my bed today
and i was just counting the number of embarrassing things
ive done in my life
oh man!
i could write a best seller on it
so spastic boy.

theres this picture of jennifer garner
on yahoo home page
so retarded! i saved it and uploaded it into friendster
she's not really that good looking anyway
and the picture was like one of those where
hate fans mess up the picture with whatever program
actually she only looked good in elektra.
tight leather. ooooo yeah!
her cheek bones are too high
her lips are fat cos she pouts and tries to act as if
their actually naturally
so spastic boy!

i slept 4 hours in the afternoon today
thats so boring
i cant wait till like after o's
christmas
work
shop
get laid
host my own porn page
buy the whole playboy mansion
turn my whole damn condo into playboy condo
PLAYBOY PARK! WOOHOOOOOO
so spastic boy!

fuck la i cant sleep :l ive got emath paper 2 tmr.
and amath and poa paper 2 on tuesday
how i wish this prelims was the o's
yet again i dun want it to be the o's
ive been so slack im scaring myself
i want to go into next year excited for my results
i want to go into school next year and my teachers beam at me
i want to go into playboy mansion
i want to go into fits and smile sadistically
i want to go into space and be the first man to have his
voice recorded in space
i want to go into the sun to have a barbeque
i want to score 6 points for my o's
thats my new target.
when september ends and october comes.
i'll make sure that happens.
watch me
FUCK EDUCATION
I DON'T NEED TO KNOW ABOUT THE MOMENT OF MY BUTT TO MY OFFICE CHAIR
WHILE IM AT WORK
OR COFFEE'S EMPIRICAL FORMULA WHILE IM STIRRING IT WITH HOT H2O.
hmmmm actually it'd be pretty cool to go
i know the moment of your butt to your office chair!
and tell this hot slutty secretary you wanna lay the smack down on
coffee's empirical formula and watch her go
hmmm i dunno. you wanna lay me?
shit
what am i talking about.
i know
i'm talking about why i don't get education
what a psycho guy i am
so spastic boy!

im like totally addicted to
switchfoot:stars
its been in my com since forever
but ive only been listening to it when it came out on mtv
popularity really does make salt taste sour
okie that had no relation and it doesnt make sense
cos
i could have said
popularity really does make salt taste sweet
but then again. i suppose there's abit of meaning in everything
like when a lightbulb says screw you.
its just trying to say can you tighten yourself? your dropping
then again
what i just said has no meaning again
but then again
everything is supposed to have meaning
wheres the meaning in "allah!" then proceeds to kamikaze yourself
oh i know. cos of the exclamation of allah! your doing it for allah
if you just kamikaze yourself
you'd just be labelled as.
"guy the professionals didnt help, what's wrong with the efficiency of our country?"
i bet thats how social studies, propaganda bullshit
came about
humph!
i wish i took history
geog is so full so shit
so spastic boy!

this is going nowhere.
im still bored.
i can keep this going for pretty long
i miss sec 1 and playing basketball/soccer everyday
WHEN I LOOK AT THE STARS I SEE SOMEONE ELSE
oh man i cant wait to see my english compo mark

talking about english. my english teacher's husband past away
have you ever felt sad all of a sudden
but the sadness you feel isnt yours?
but someone elses?
i feel so sad for her. she's such a nice woman
i bet she's 38. 40 tops
her husband died so young
i dunno how he died but he did
isnt that the underlying fact
tuesdays with morrie there.
how i wish my class can get all our acts together
and show miss radha our support for her and do well for our o's
can we?
lets do a petition and an oath to her
and actual do it this time (haha)
can can? sign my guestbook if you agree
and actually read till here
wah lan if her husband didnt die ill smack eugene man.
so spastic boy!

my dad always writes one of his oh so
philosophical everyday bullshit
"today is the tomorrow you spoke of yesterday"
i cant help but think if my dad was young girls would
actually go after him
yikes that's psycho
i'd have to fight with my dad over girls
thats just retarded
haha cos obviously i'd win
maybe we'd have a contest of who gets laid more at the playboy mansion
ouch. poor dick muscles
thats alot of work to do
shit whats wrong with me
oh well once in a blue moon.
lets continue
i like kanye west.
i think he's probably the only black rapper i like
other then songs and stuff
i mean everything about them is bling and
muscles and girls
quite boring la
girls girls girls.
so boring
anyways. hey does this thing have a limit? lets try and find out
kanye west actually has style for a black
like whatshisface er. jamie foxx
yeah thats right
those two did a massively impressive performance at the vma's
like not just girls dancing around and shit
their entrance was nice
their outfits were rad
just nice. not what homie here there everywhere
black videos are basically girls, money, cars and their
rapper friends
no wait
black videos are black not yet. YOU GET IT AHHHHHH!! not funny
so spastic boy!

anyways kanye west actually cares about the poor and stuff.
diamonds from sierra leone(sp?) and jesus walks
damn rad la.
ohhh i love the song all falls down
KANYE WEST!!!

yesterday in church i got freaked out cos
(gf)^-1(x) = -1
issit equals to
x = gf(-1)
or since (gf)^-1 = f^-1g^-1 therefore
x = fg(-1)
shit man i hope im correct.
i put down the first one. shit
no worries. i promise myself 6 points for o's
oh man i love alexisonfire : happiness by the kilowatt
super style man the drums
i never knew there was actually a score sheet for drums too
until my dad told me 3 months ago.
so i knew since 3 months ago
so i should rephrase and say
i never knew till 3 months ago
man the drums are damn style boy!
how do you put music into your blog?
i wanna put this song! :'(
i have half a mind to stay up until 0130 and watch
whose line is it anyway?
i think it's only on weekdays
shit i go check.
funky!! THERES FRIENDS NOW BYE MOFOS
and fofos
so spastic boy!

when i look at the stars i feel like myself :D

fine maybe old people does have some use

2005-09-13T06:07:00.000-07:00

yay had social studies test today
i have no idea what chapter the SBQ was on but i still managed to do it.
im not sure whether i answered properly though
hmmm anyways i managed to complete the paper with answers that made sense
and ironic to my previous entry
for SEQ i did the question on the topic of ageing population
haha. and i realised something
ive been spelling ageing as aging
cos in primary school i was thought that all words that ends with "e"
would be changed to ing heh
oh well. i hope i'd be able to pass this ss with and a or b
i really need it man
oh well.
emath was pretty much a breeze
i think kkw is pretty much only good for
helping us get prepared for o levels in a way
but to be prepared for the long wait of getting back our results
lol so lame
but its kinda true what!
past year prelim never mark. say havent finish when didnt even start
mofo. fofo
all the questions also so easy
but still im gonna lose 20 marks at the max :l
that's still an a, anyway :D
chem & phys prac tmr.
wtf man! im like the first shift
and after that i have to be locked up in some room so as not reveal the question for practical :l
i end at 930 i think
and i'd only be released at like wtf, 12?!
oh well amath and chem on thursday
i hope it'll be time well spent
haha HAVE FUN!

social studies and helping the elderly is full of bull

2005-09-08T04:14:00.000-07:00

i really really dun appreciate old people sometimes.
ie today
like my friend muthu's dad wanted to fix two fans that were broken
i mean fine he fixed it
but wtf he had to call his dad la
like must ask whether he sent anyone to take it la
whether he could give it to my friend la
so retarded like which idiot walks into a worn out
crap looking shop and says
i want this and that mitsubishi fan
how spastic la. like just GIVE IT TO HIM ALREADY!
and then that lead me to coming home late
like what 330
and okie fine so like i didnt tell my mum where i was going
like if she was in her work place she'd care where i was
then she saw that i failed my geog
like okie so? everyone fails
and like she doesnt know i scored highest for one of my class tests for amath, chem and
im supposedly one of the consistent ones for ss
LIKE SCREW YOU MAN YOU DUN FIND OUT DUN SHOOOT YOUR MOUTH
fine la my fault again
notice how its always the younger people who say sorry or its their inconvenience
wah lao so unfair la
and there goes people saying the world is unfair
eh originally pls. so cliche.
more about old people.
today i had to go back to school to get last year's
prelim emath paper 1
i went back and the teacher was like
sorry ar ive been too busy so i havent FINISHED marking your papers
HE DIDNT EVEN START MARKING!
he took 3 weeks to mark our class test
like two sided paper type of test
OH MY GOODNESS
quote cut me some slack unquote
LIKE FUCK OFF LA!
cut me some slack. UH! *bitchy waves hands like an idiot doing a chicken dance*
shut up la kzsbvrilubsevb

fahrenheit 9/11

2005-09-02T05:03:00.000-07:00

michael moore rocks!
man so amazing la how he got all the documents
like seriously bang GWB
like there was this document where bush blacked off
alot of names and other significant stuff
and michael moore had the original copy.
like what the fuck?!

english prelims today, i hope i can get an a.
b3 at least
compo question was "life"
like woohooo!! so easy to write, right?

so the september holidays are here.
soon it'll be october and then november
yikes man like im so totally not prepared.
i looked through last year's prelims for amath
i could like do everything mentally as in the steps
but, all the past year papers which my school gives my class
like all so easy. then when the real thing actually comes we're all like
SHIT HOW TO DO

wah lao. my siemens just hanged. SCREW TECHNOLOGY
actually maybe not. dota rocks my socks.
then again its probably why im not prepared.
oh well, at least im good in something
-AR LA HOST! NOOB

George W. Bush

2005-09-01T05:39:00.000-07:00

i watched disc 1 of Farenheit 9/11 today
really very enlightning and it brings a "hmmm" to whether the fella is suitable to even run for election
let alone be an American
but anyways. really enlightning

and i wanna blog this

Whose Line Is It Anyway; scenes from a hat
worst senario to use the "ini mine mini mo"

guest of WLIT goes "mini mo" to Ryan and the bald old man
"Congratulations Mr Bush!! Your the new president of United States!"

THE CROWD GOES BERSERK!

aces day

2005-09-01T01:24:00.000-07:00

oh man wednesday was so stupid.
just football and stuff.
super boring and a damn waste of time
the only good thing was
marcel lee
our new principal whom we all love to hate
i remember last time he said something about being a soccer player; striker
okie fine
so he played yesterday i suppose okie for an old man
but
HAHAAHHAHAH HE WAS LIKE RUNNING ONE TIME, AND HE TRIPPED OVER THE BALL OR SOMETHING OR RAN TOO FAST
AND LOST HIS BALANCE AND FELL
SO COCKSTAR! AHHHH HAAHHAHAHAH
THEN THE WHOLE SCHOOL WAS LIKE ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRWQORGIPAWGVCPWIOBUCUIBGEFEBOBEC, SCREAMING AND LAUGHING
SO LOSER COME AND PLAY THEN MAKE A FOOL OF HIMSELVE
though the soccer matches were pretty boring, there was one shot that really made the others look stupid
*as if they weren't stupid enough*
okie so it was this 5N guy
he kicked the ball from midfield
machiam David Beckham
then the keeper (PE teacher) jumped but couldnt reach and the ball hit the post
OH MY SHIT!
so the teachers won again
all 4 years since ive been in school. lol
probably stretching back into last time
heh so gay la

prelims and inevitability so soon.

Sum41: Noots
no apologies, i never thought you'd be so easily deceived

Times Like These

2005-08-29T07:49:00.000-07:00

I am a one way motorway
I'm the one that drives away
then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I'm a wild light blinding bright burning off alone

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
do I stay or run away
and leave it all behind?

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

so brilliant
so simple
so meaningful
with hurricane Katrina and what, lets go hand in hand together.
terrorism and mother nature, force to be reckon with.
maybe, lets all take some time to think.
what have you done with your life?
what have you done for anyone other then yourself?
your new bag, phone, first (cant obviously be last) exhilarating loss of virginity and feeling of greatness and cool.
lets bring a new defination to emo
generation X, generation Strange
sun dun even shine through our window pane

so sick so sick of being tired and oh SO tired of being sick

coldplay - don't panic

a million little pieces

2005-08-26T09:02:00.000-07:00

the fury
i can feel it rising
it's telling me
im your master
i control you
bow down to me
i will engulf you
fuck him
fuck him
fuck him
fuck him
fuck him
fuck him
fuck him
SCREAM BLOODY FUCKING MURDER
KILL KILL KILL
fuck him
KILL HIM
fuck him
FUCKING KILL HIM
fuck him

FUCK THIS SHIT

perhaps, perhaps, perrrrrrhaps

2005-08-22T02:03:00.000-07:00

prelims in roughly 3 weeks.
holy shit
im still here, and so are you
what are we doing man
im so scared yet im so excited
the inevitably of things if i continue like this seriously scares me
yet to me the o levels is the epitome of excitement
like i cant wait until next year march to see what i get
how many a's
but if i dream of the future and just live my life
i'm kinda fucked
and, i think thats basically what im doing now
and its really scary man
the intro of Alkaline Trio : Radio is playing now
yikes like so emo
its seriously poignant.
i feel so poignant

LETS GO DON'T WAIT
THIS NIGHT'S ALMOST OVER
HONEST!
LETS MAKE THIS ONE LAST FOREVER

O LEVEL-ERS! PUSH THE TEMPO PUSH THE TEMPO

spring cleaning

2005-08-08T01:01:00.000-07:00

astheniia@gmail.com

this is way fucked up

2005-08-07T08:13:00.000-07:00

i think someone hacked into my msn
if i find out who.
im gonna get my classmate to hack into his ip and mess up his com
i hope that's possible

st gab's boleh!

2005-08-05T04:29:00.000-07:00

woooooooooHOOOOOOOO!!!
jeremy shaved his head!!
tua tou!! hahahahahahha
man st gab's band is the best la.
haha.

so tired :l

the shaver goes zah zah zah, the person goes ha ha ha

2005-08-04T00:50:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAA I CANT WAIT TO SEE JEREMY BECOME BALD!!
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!!,
WE WILL NOW REALLYYYY SEE IF JEREMY HAS AS BIG A HEAD AS HE APPEARS TO HAVE

ST GAB'S BOLEH! ST GAB'S BOLEH

OI NABEI
BOH LEH?!

not funny.

freddy got fingered?

2005-07-24T05:19:00.000-07:00

oh man time really flies
its only like 5 weeks to prelims for me
so fast!
i havent started on any of my revision
and i missed two tuition lessons
but cool, im looking forward to o's
i love studying
i just cant get my momentum
lol what kinda contradicting
school again tmr
and i'd better bloody kick my stupid dota addiction
hmmm
i really cant find anything to say

Taking on seven years
the holy ghost had left alone
Test my arms, kick like crazy
I've been trying way too long
only push the way off to fight you
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
Getting off my chest
the story ends
I would find a way without you
Tell him his eyes see too clear
I would find a way without you
Tell him his eyes see too clear
That mistake was gold
I know that without you
is something that I could never do
That was why staple the eyes and
seven dates for me to sell machines
and tear on
seven years you assured me
that I'd be fine if I complied
only push the way off to fight you
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm not sure
Getting off my chest the story ends
I would find a way without you
Tell him his eyes see too clear
I would find a way without you
Tell him his eyes see too clear
That mistake was gold
I know that without you
is something that I could never do
That was why staple the eyes and
seven dates for me to sell machines
and tear on
Sorry I'm Sorry I'm to blame (Don't treat me I'm to blame)
Don't treat me like I ever accused you[x5]

dont treat me like i ever accused you

lets take a trip down memory lane

2005-07-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

damn
its been long since the last time i updated.
well, its a month to two weeks to my prelims
29th august
ouch, so fast
and it was practically like yesterday when school started
as in first day of school
ahhhh trying to be funny and say after june holidays right
anyways.
im so happy!
i finally passed my geog and ss tests this year!
first time :D
and chem also
woohoooo!!
wait, gtg update aagin

okie, back
anyways, ive been reading a new book
its called his 'n' hers
its damn freaking quite.
his = jim owen
hers = alison smith
hahaha jim had a band called captain magnet.
alison has a cat named disco.
and they were married at 20 something
with no witnesses, family wise
only a security guard and some old lady.
its super cute

aiyah. byebye

lets take a minute

2005-06-19T04:36:00.000-07:00

lets turn to this side of me
neither left nor right
neither you know nor anyone,
but i
of insecurity
of anger

i feel so mad, so angry, so lost, confused again

who says one is odd
one, is perfect
but perfection is a disease
and im being vaccined
im no where near perfect and such,
anymore

leave me be,
sanitarium

eeeyerr

2005-06-13T22:02:00.000-07:00

okie
ive got to admit the sad truth
at first i thought it'd turn out fine but
last night
while i was playing my dota
i turned around
and i saw my brother walking out with his girlfriend
and im sad to say this but
DAMN BRO!
YOUR GIRLFRIENDS ARE UGLY!
shit i feel so bad
but anyways heh

ive got a 180 questions of mcq to do by friday
for poa, and wah lao, sian to the max
i want my brothers' dkny belt back
shit boy the buckle is damn cool la
its like some eagle thingy with DKNY in the background
ahhh!
okie, theres nothing to blog about
lifes pretty boring
oh yeah last night
my cupboard got cracked
poor thing
my knuckle almost did too
sigh, i dun remember when i was ever that angry
i had to walk around my house for about half and hour
hmmmmmmmm
but anyways

MR AND MRS SMITH! :D

its a beautiful day

2005-05-23T06:10:00.000-07:00

im currently listening to beautiful day
and shit. i just realised how inspiring U2 is.
heres a get back for people who call you a meanie.
no. i mean.
okie forget it
haha
its like
SHUT UP LA
okie im talking to myself again
i wanna customise my own blazer!
i wanna get a white tie
and also i wanna get a high cut converse to draw checkered for myself :)
but aiyah
my results were really so depressing
and it really sucks
sigh. i didnt get a for anything. even emath
wah laoooooooooooooooooooooooooo
i got 37 points for l1r5
i know its bad but
sigh.
excuses. really quite a drag
so anyway.
life has pretty much been stagnant.
but i watched star wars the other day
SHIT BOY! LIGHTSABERS ARE DAMN STYLE LA!
and im so sad mace windu died
wah lao. purple lightsaber go to waste la!
and the fight scene damn funny
hahahha like slow mo button got pushed.
damn funny man
hahahha
but mace windu is the coolest la
his got this skilled thats damn power
i forgot what its called
but anyways
went to watch at lido la
then wah!!
all the fanatics there man i swear
some were wearing robes,
then there was one with the storm trooper outfit
then another one according to my friend was dressed as darth vadar
haha but i didnt see
and anyways,
damn funny
when darth vadar was sort of like "lifted" up?
if i say on and off button you would understand
hahahhahahhah super funny man balls!
but you have to see that part to understand.
hahahhhaahahhahaha!!

so i try to hold on
to a time when nothing mattered
and i cant explain what happened
and i cant erase the things that ive done
no i cant
how could this happen to me
ive made my mistakes
got no where to run
the night goes on
inside im fading away
im sick of this life
i just wanna scream
how could this happen to me

hmm

2005-05-16T21:22:00.000-07:00

am i trying too hard.?
raining days and straylight run really kinda evokes emotions and flow of thought. hmm
but now we're too deep in even an operation wont do good

your like a needle in a pincushion that just irritatingly wun come out.

2005-05-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

FUCK THIS IS THE LAST STRAW

anyway shoutouts :
hey melvin
haha.
no la. not angry
just that was thinking about some stuff
and it kinda flowed
anyway NO SCHOOL TMR AND TUESDAY! HAHA YOU FUCKING LOSER!

hey nick
haha long time no see man.
you guys still play basketball?
i wanna join also
next week.
sompar

food for thought

2005-05-02T23:55:00.001-07:00

lets see where i should begin.
who says history never repeats itself
you know like making the wrong decisions and stuff
well.
ive had my fair share of stupid decisions
but some people really never learn
im sure you guys know the phrase "dun judge a book by its cover"
any idiot would know that
but im pretty certain that most idiots use it. just to you know.
show their english is good blahblahblah
but seriously
does being perfect on the outside necessarily mean that your perfect on the inside?
vice versa,
does being imperfect of the outside necessarily mean that your imperfect on the inside?
you know the growth process of a caterpillar right?
you know. shoots the silk all over itself
than turns into a cacoon
becomes a butterfly the next
totally different at every stage
appearance wise i mean
but the bottom line is that
the butterfly was a worm, is a worm and forever will be a worm
i mean. we all know that
right?
well. applications applications

who would have known
that if you took a candy from the incredibles baby,
you might just lose your fucking finger.
HUH?!

well. pre-pubisant ( i dun believe i got that word right) assholes will
inevitably have a certain level maturity,
right?

and why oh why do people so love to talk bad about others?
i really really dun get it
if news and assumptions are correct
WHAT THE FUCK MAN!
if the phrase " with friends like these, who needs enemies" has any relation at all
then i guess it should be changed to "with friends like these, friends dun exist(??)" i really really dun get it
sigh
and for a while there i thought people around me could
actually think straight
most importantly, scientists should really go research on why
they said that girls mature faster then boys
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

oh and lastly
TRIBUTES TO BLINK 182, WE WILL MISS YOU!!

food for thought

2005-05-02T23:55:00.000-07:00

ive wasted so much time on a friend too young too proud too understand. so this is the end!

2005-04-16T19:57:00.000-07:00

just came back from nelson's chalet
wah! steam sia fucking funny man hahahaahah!!
today was damn funny la
nelson + whats next game = laughing non stop in kopitiam
but anyway.
im so happy
cos yesterday i didnt get drunk.
yes. what an achievement.
HAHAHAH b to the ombay!!!
one lesson man, never drink with an empty stomach!
i swear you'll die
drinking + dunno how to play the whats the next game + stray cat = frustration therefore chasing cat
super funny la.
NEED FOR SPEED!!!
hahahah daytona usa!! = substitute for dota
hahahhahahh!!! what an alternative

but im balding worse then ever now :(
sigh. haha.! by army id be bald.
HAHAH!! GET IT GET IT!!
fine la not funny
but you know whats funny? number 49!!!! woohooooooo!
and i finally found out where to get my white framed specs
jared says that its at bishan
must go check it out man
heh.
sia la bung!! mutt power la dey!
and finch is my best loved band now. yellowcard too
oh man. hybrid's are the best.
hybrid theory = linkin park!! :D
finch : project mayhem = GO CRAZY!!! PSYCHO MOSHING!!
haha.
oh yeah. going back to the topic of mutt, kenneth fam should become all out mutt man
hahaahe looks better
oh yeah. and i wanna try vintage now :l
ever seen someone with checkered pants, checkered cap, checkered collar shirt, checkered wrist assessory
but i dun have checkered pants.
everybody go awwwwwwwwwwww!!

stereophonics : dakota

shape-shifting?lifeshifting?

2005-04-07T04:32:00.001-07:00

the sky outside was damn nice just awhile ago
it was like orange throughout
bloody nice
an orange sky at 725
i swear the end is coming
well. there is a lesson to learn from this
now its all dark and just like any normal night
aiyah
i forgot what i wanted to say
ill blog again another time

anyway the pope's funeral is 2moro
so everyone.
please do say a prayer for him
it might go a long way :)
HALLEUJIAH!!

shape-shifting?lifeshifting?

2005-04-07T04:32:00.000-07:00

cos maybe there was something wrong and you werent telling me

2005-03-25T08:46:00.000-08:00

wah lao. today dota
was bloody boring and it sucked la
everything is pretty damn sian now
i need sports!
sunday basketball. here i come
and guys my cat class teacher's husband's father died
please do keep him in your prayers.

the "m" :
miles apart : yellowcard ,
mixtape : brand new ,
mixtape : butch walker (courtesy of lee huiyi :)) ,
mockingbird : eminem

DOTA!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-15T08:25:00.000-08:00

wow.
i havent felt this great since last year midway man.
woooo!
i pretty much think
that. ive got everything i could ever ask for
my zen, friends(good and bad), whatever
i was up last night cos i couldnt sleep
and there on mtv was this video
at first i thought it was just some other stupid advertisement
but then after a while
i realised that it was a song
than i was like wow
i really am mofo lucky
those kids in africa
kenya and such
they are born not able to eat
cos their body cant absorb the nutrients from the food
and they just sit there and drink liquid stuff and loads of fluid
and we guys here
sit around and complain about not having enough money
and on the video
it showed like equations of the money we spend on making videos
and enjoying our lives
like one studio recording could get about a lot of temporary hospital tents up
for the sick and stuff
its just really saddening
yesterday was a real real fucked up day
i dunno why this kinda things happen
but today was different
it was just great
and i learnt today that
it takes two hands to clap
so i learnt to treasure my true friends man
no matter how fucked up the arguement is
if you trust me and i trust you enough
we'll give each other our own space
i dun care about any of that love shit anymore
i think its a load of bull until you find it
seriously
just have fun
get fat whatever
die a happy death
ahhhhhhhh what an entry
i wish this was my own personal diary
but then again.
id be too lazy.
oh well!
this year is the o's
and im gonna treasure this week as much as possible man
i do so much for all you mother fuckers
and all you can do is talk behind my back
you say we're all close
but you cant even tell me the problem
just avoid me
the truth comes out sooner or later whether you like it or not
i dun care if your taking this as a attempt to offend you
its not.
think whatever you want
i just heard "caught up" by usher
and its pretty damn meaningful behind all that groovy bass and stuff
theres one line that goes
"my homies say this girl is really crampping my style
i suppose so
but i suppose
its gonna end somewhere
i was gonna snap soon man
but im glad for today and yesterday's video
and i also watched disc 1 of the gladiator
its a mighty good show
and.
the fucker lost his wife, his child, his bloody farm, and his home
that really sucks
imagine we guys have our parents breathing down our necks and asking us to come HOME
we hate that
admit it
but this guy here
he kept on going and going
i really love that movie
and i ate four packets of maggi mee with watching the disc 1
and tonight im gonna watch disc 2
and guess what
im gonna have a huge packet of hong kong noodles
wowwwwwwwwwww!! power la
im so lucky
i really am
and all you guys too
sigh.
what a kick ass entry
what a day to remember

EH PUSSAYE!! DOTA CHIONG AR!

guys are imperfect, but girls are shallow.

2005-03-14T14:14:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a damn fun day man
wah pool,
DOTA BALLS!! WOOOHOOOO
i think dota is more addictive and pleasurable than sex.
lol.
its freaking good man.
and ive got my zen micro
wah lao, power only la
the bass and sound quality is damn good
woooooooooooooo!!! headsprung
and ive pierced my right ear already.
yes. this week is gonna be HAVOC!!!!!!!!!
watching spongebob with cat class 2moro
haaaaaahahah shiok man!!!

Songs for thought?
brand new : seventy times seven,
finch : letters to you,
story of the year : anthem of our dying day

peace up! a town down

signficant other_

2005-02-24T03:49:00.000-08:00

okie.
its common tests again next week.
and im just sitting here
on my big butt
aiyah.
geog, ss, chem physics
what the........... :(
wah lao. im damn scared la
2moro theres another gig at third place
im going to watch
second storey and parousia
haha looking forward to it :)
right now.
cos i just got a downloading program.
ive got a whole new playlist :)
ah lian language never ceases to amaze me with new synonym's
EG. euu (you)
ahhh what creativity
i suppose singapore IS achieving its goal? haha :)
who knows where to buy super thick framed white specs?
imma mutt fuck haha

finally!

2005-02-18T07:40:00.000-08:00

okie.
so i went town today
but i didnt get everything that was listed down
im such an idiot
anyway.
i got better :)
okie so first thing.
i bought this studded belt like 3 days ago
it was black, 3 rows of studs
so the more i looked at it.
the more ugly i thought it was
so i went to change la
so i went with my classmates
and one of them wanted to get a studded belt also
ANYWAY to cut the long story short
I JUST CHANGED THE FREAKING BELT AND SOLD IT TO HIM
FULLSTOP

best part of the whole day is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FINALLY PIERCED MY EAR!! WOOHOOOOOOO!!
i like la super nice
than i just bought a diamond stud also
wah lao!! freaking expensive la!
the diamond's so freaking tiny
and it cost like bloody 100 plus la!
wah lao.
some kinda good deal
than after that i wanted to get a cap
so walked around practically the whole town
aiyah the best la
i went to heeren flash and splash
and it was just there
it was shining
bright white light with heaven's choir
okie sorry.
its just this stussy cap
its checkered black and white in the front
and mesh behind
and than theres a small stussy word at the side
of the cap.
its sooooooooooooooo freaking nice!

oh and im just joking about the diamond
if u believed me
WHAT AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:)

no pain no gain?

2005-02-17T19:11:00.000-08:00

booyaka!
haha woo hoo. got new blog already la.
thanks huis the layout is freaking cool
:)
okie 2moro
after school i shall be going town
haha with classmates
and im gonna shop shop shop!!
well. okie now its for sure man
i hope.
aiyah.
okie SO FAR im gonna get
a pair of jeans
maybe shirt?
schoolbag
and lastly. mp3
ipod shuffle
:) but im not getting that 2moro

anywaysss.
i cut my hair
its okie
BUT ITS FREAKING THIN!
i told the barber not to thin
shit than its freaking thin now la
but prav said that he heard i told the barber to thin
aiyahhhh!!
anyway.
common tests are coming soon
im like not worried. but im worried
kinda shit. aiyah!
im like so out of control of my life
:( i mean not life
like kinda not in control with my er.
aiyah im not in control of ________
shut up i lost the word.
haha.

testing

2005-02-16T04:27:00.000-08:00

first entry is by me, lee huiyi. as usual